[	mood	|	discontent	]
[	music	|	Beheaded :: Fed Upon Odium	]

A lot and not much things have happened since February 28th.
That doesn't make sense...I know. Oh well...

Recently, I arrived home from a trip to Washington D.C.
It's a little too political for me. Other than that,
it's pretty much perfect up there.
Fresh air, the grass is green, and no one gives a shit if
you cut them off on the road. God damn it.
                             

Anyway, I'll try my best to keep this shit up to date.

[	mood	|	rejected	]
[	music	|	Marilyn Manson :: In The Shadow Of The Valley Of Death	]

Massive 'power failure' on LiveJournal kind of fucked me up.
And yes, I AM alive. Just haven't posted.

No one really replies to this shit anymore.
But I need everyone's opinion.

Next year, my 'friend' is refusing to associate
with me for the most STUPID reason ever.
My skin color. I'm pale white.
Now is that fucked up, or what?
I seriously could  s h o o t  this girl.
Now I know how blacks feel because of the racism bullshit.
It hurts...
Although this chick was the shittiest friend I've fucking had in my life;
I feel worthless and tired.

Stab me in the fucking back a thousand times,
and leave me. I know you WANT to.

[	mood	|	annoyed	]
[	music	|	Terror :: Don't Need Your Help	]

Lame quiz for you all to fill out.
I took some questions from quizes I found and just added my own in pure boredem.
Very Simple, paste it under the comment box,  fill in the questions.
Is it really that difficult?
Not really. Be honest about it too.

:G e n e r a l:
1. Do you know my phone number? If so, type the last four digits ::
2. Do you think I'll get married? ::
3. If you do, who do you think I'll marry? If it were to happen. ::
4. If you're so smart, when is my birthday? ::
5. Who is my best friend? ::
6. Where did you and I meet? ::
7. Have you ever had a dream or nightmare involved with me in it or ABOUT me? ::
8. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be? ::
9. Describe me in 3-5 words ::
10. Why did you pick those words? ::
11. If you could tell me anything, what would it be? ::
12. If you could ask me anything, what would it be? ::
13. If you could give me anything, what would it be? ::
14. Are we good friends? ::
15. Do you trust me? ::
16. What is something you admire most about me? ::
17. What is something you dislike most about me? ::

:P e r s o n a l:
1. I am the _______ person you know. ::
2. Do you ever think about me, at all? ::
3. On a scale of 1-10 [10 being highest], how much do you think of me each day? ::
4. How do you rate my personallity 1-10? ::
5. Physically, what's my best feature? ::
6. Mentally, what's my best feature? ::
7. Do you think I'm Odd, Freaky, Stuck Up, Assholish, or Normal ::
8. Do we have common interests? ::
9. Is my music I listen to strange or okay? ::
10. Have you ever been driven to the verge of saying "I hate you" to me, or about me with or without me knowing it? ::

:E v e r y o n e:
1. What is one thing you would want to tell me before I died? ::
2. What do you think about me in general? ::
3. Was this totally pointless? ::
4. Will you make me fill this out about you next time? ::

[	mood	|	morose	]
[	music	|	Linkin Park :: My December	]

Christmas isn't really "special" to me in any way, shape, or form.
 - I'm not religious, nor believe in God or Jesus. Hate me for it, I really don't care.
 - I don't socialize with the people that come for the holiday.
 - I cannot do anything to help with cooking or some type of thing, and I also am afraid to. Because I only get yelled at, everything I do is wrong, even when it really isn't.
 - When I even try to speak to the people that come over, they look at me like I have more than one head. So screw it.

My so-called mother always gives me an atittude on Christmas, I have no clue why.
Doesn't give an atittude to anyone besides me.
And obviously I don't entirely appreciate of it.
Then later on she wonders why I act so upset.
It seems I was only clearly visible to my uncle yesterday, he actually said "Hi". Amazing.
I was sitting at the computer and he goes, "Ashley, give me a hug". I took off my headphones and looked at him like "what the fuck?", and just sat there still. So he goes..."Don't make me come over there and talk to all of your friends on the computer".

. . .
I responded with, "I don't have any friends".
He looks at me with a blank stare.
...then I thought about the night where I was walking around
the mall alone, because of my friends last week left me in
a store and didn't notice, "Oh well, YOU ditched US".
How lovely. Lets just leave it at that.

[	mood	|	predatory	]
[	music	|	Otep :: Nein	]

May apply to certain as utterly 'disturbing' in some matter.